The Rotation
Operations Specialists (OS) aren't really meant for onshore work, so our rotation was 5 years at sea and 2 years onshore, and I was just finishing my 5 years at sea when OS Senior Chief Connell showed up—he was now the detailer who decides where all E-1 through E-6 OSs go for their next orders—and he threw the entire book of orders open in front of me and told me I could have any order in it I qualify for...
You have to understand that getting new orders normally works like this: you call your detailer, plead your case based on your evals and accomplishments, beg if you must, and then you get whatever the detailer gives you. If he's pressed to fill a billet, you're likely going there. This is not a long conversation. So to have the book thrown open before you was an extreme privilege!
A billet for the Pentagon war room was in there. I asked Connell what I'd be doing, and he didn't know anything, but we could both agree that Captains probably serve coffee to Admirals in there, so who knows. Only one thing was certain: it would look pretty impressive on a resume!
Same as NORAD, there was an opening for an OS under the Cheyenne Mountains. Again, I had no idea what I'd be doing, but it would look impressive on a resume.
About a decade later, one of the big TV networks ran a special where their cameras were the first ever allowed into NORAD. It revealed 2 OSs sitting at 2 Naval Tactical Data Systems tracking "space debris," among many other unspoken things, I'm sure.
While I thought about it, Connell penciled me in for NORAD.
Or, as it turns out, your detailer can waive the 5/2 rule, and I could have gone right back to sea for another 4 years on board the newest Aegis Cruiser, also gaining AIC and ATACO training. AICs are Air Intercept Controllers who controlled fighter and bomber aircraft like F-14s and F-18s back then. ATACO stands for Air Tactical Action Controller Officer, and they control helicopters and fixed-wing aircraft hunting subs, dropping sonar buoys, and so on.
I want to stress something I've pointed out before: If Top Gun were real, an AIC would have been constantly directing every one of those Navy pilots. That would have ruined the movie and prevented much of the out-of-the-chain-of-command flying that happened.
Other positions included flying around the country as Navy Security, bringing back AWOL sailors, like in the early Jack Nicholson movie; I forget the title. Whatever I took, the re-enlistment bonus for an OS was $20,000 in 1988 dollars (approximately $56,162 today).
If I weren't gay, I would have probably gone back to sea. (A First Class opted for the NORAD position because he was within 1 rank of their E-5 request.) But I'd just survived 5 years of my youth tightly in the closet. I decided I'd best hit college and live OUT. I'd proved I could "man up" with the best of them; I'd earned my freedom to be me in October of 1988.
I was discharged Honorable with a preferred re-enlistment code of RER-1.
After 9/11, I was contacted to be convinced to re-enlist as an Intelligence Specialist. By then, the Don't Ask, Don't Tell policy created gay witch hunts. I'd survived my 5 years with gay porn in my locker, and there wasn't one locker inspection the entire time. I just couldn't imagine that freedom under the new policy, from everything I'd heard.
Hell, in plenty of foreign ports and even in downtown Norfolk, our home port, I went to plenty of gay bars but remained celibate. I never really understood how Naval Investigative Services didn't know about me. Other gay guys I knew on the Tico had been busted and drummed out of the Navy with an Other Than Honorable discharge for being gay. But frankly, it seemed to me that the more senior you were, or the more integral you were to the ship's operations, the less likely you were to be outed.
There were other guys on Tico who knew I was gay, mostly because they were gay, and we all trusted each other and could appreciate that we were not alone. Of course, my best friends knew: Kunz from my division, Quartermaster Nardone, and Alyea down in Engineering. Alyea begged me not to tell Everett. Ev was a short, thick-necked, gentleman redneck from Richmond, Virginia, just minus all the prejudice. And I judged him right, but for a moment there...
After I told Ev, he immediately turned away, and I thought he was winding up a haymaker. But he turned back with a very gentlemanly statement of fact: "Eric, my daddy raised me to value that a friend is a friend no matter what." And that was the end of it. Not all rednecks are complete hicks. Ev went on to become a successful painter, especially in portraits.
After I got home, a couple of Aegis contracting companies contacted me and offered very good money to come work for them. Several of my fellow OSs, like Botinelli, already were. In fact, one of them would get a bonus if they hired me.
Looking back, it often feels like I should have re-enlisted. My fellow OSs thought I was a lifer (I role-played one convincingly?), but I would've never made it 20 years as a gay male back then.
In the end, I am so utterly glad I chose to get out and move to Tucson to be around my mother because she died 3 years later of a sudden aneurysm. I value those 3 years so dearly! Oh, and I was there for my grandmother's last two years, too.
Oh, and on my way out of the Navy, we were getting a new division officer, who said, "I hear you're great at your job, so how about you write your last eval?" Of course I took him up on it. I even gave myself one negative comment, to be fair.
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A note on Bill Kunz: Bill was from Oshkosh, WI, where my father lived, and Bill's father worked in the art department at Kimberly-Clark, a major paper mill, while my stepmother worked in accounting, and they knew each other. I've been DMing Bill on Mondays recently. Bill got the Ticonderoga by being top of his class, so it was a coincidence rather than a geographic recruiting factor. It's a very small world.
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I'd like to point out that my life has found me in both wonderful places and dreadful places while I was undiagnosed with bipolar disorder. Now we can look back and understand the highs and lows. But no, not everything was always so stellar.



